this story mainly relates you to friendships, drugs, money and love.
it's a brand new year, today is the 2nd week of the brand new 2010. i've been slacking around, doing nonsense for the past 3 years? yes, i've been stuck in this fucking meth world ever since 2008. i regretted that i have made the decision of smoking meth. if i could, i would really love to turn back time. everything will be as simple as before. i admit that i was a very naive little boy before i started meth. but after going through crisis and obstacles, i realized that the reality is so different from what i have expected when i was a child.
i was from a very healthy family, having a caring and successful daddy, a beautiful and lovely mummy, a wise and cool older brother and a cute and smart little brother. basically my family is very close to a perfect family. maybe due to this reason, i'm very optimistic. everything looks just perfect to me. i was once have my own perspective of being a human being. living on earth. thinking of being a human is as simple as ABC. as you were a kid, all you need to do is just waking up early in the morning, go to school, get good results and that's all.. as a teenager, all you need to know is how to club!!! but of course, education first. :P so be sure to score more A's for SPM. college's life was the life that i used to love..... actually, not only me, i think most of the form 5 students are looking forward to their college's life. simply cuz no uniforms, have freedom and esp no perhimpunan on monday. lolz. but what is difference between high school and college? u still have to study hard to get good results. oh yea, the difference is if u fail in college, it cost $..... as an adult who has a degree cert on hand, it's time for me to look for a job. an easy and fast money job. but no matter what is your job, definitely you yourself have to put in effort in order to be successful in your own career. soon to be, you are already a CEO of the company. ahbuhden.. of cuz with a happy family as well, a beautiful wife, a smart and cheerful son and a sweet and cute daughter. how simple being a human isn't it? i'm so lucky cuz i have a chance to live on earth. well, that was my thinking when i was 7 years old. :) how naive right?
but when it comes to reality, everything still goes smooth as silk. all the wy till the age of 19th (2004), when drugs appears in my life and there was where my nightmare begins. even though i started to take estacy and erimin 5, it doesn't really affect my life. i mean it does affect but without me knowing. i'm still the happy go lucky andrew kee keam shin. continue to clubs, continue soccer-ing with my buddys. the only difference is just that i started to flunk my papers. lolz, changed 3 colleges. from taylor's to IACT to KDU. sighssss.. just to get the diploma cert.
after breaking up with sweetli at the age of 23 (March, 2008), i started to lose my confidence. everyday will be fulfilled with tears and sadness. the feeling is sooooo horrible until you cant even imagine. it took me some time to gain back my confidence. special thanks to my beloved daddy and beloved mummy!! who will always be there for me no matter what, where, when. they are the one who hold me when i fall. but i'm sure when u guys see me now, you guys will be like thinking such a lucky child who doesn't how to appreciate. such a big disappointment for my parents. yes, i do agree i'm a big disappointment to my parents.
this is how i started to dealing with drugs, (May, 2008). one very fine day, one of my older friend calls. justin called and offered a very cheap price for a box of erimin 5. asking me whether i wanna take. as usual punya me, happy go lucky, agree without thinking. that's me. fucked up. :/ from there, i started to know more suppliers. got to know people like simon (July, 2008). started to hang out together more often and i officially started meth. this is where dramas and conflicts begins.
started dealing myself because i was in debts because of EURO 2008 (June, 2008). i lost around RM6000 and i have to pay installment of RM 500 a week. i have no choice but to deal at that time. unfortunately, even before finishing paying the debts. simon's house got rushed by the cops. (July 23rd , 2008). the victims then were simon, sweetli and i. so we went to the lockups for 3 days. total amount to bail per person was RM 6400. plus, my dad was admitted to the damansara specialist due to his urinary discomfort. my dad transfered RM 5000 to bail me out in the hospital via maybank2u. thought that amount should be enough. but sadly, it's not enough. thanks to aunty vivien, (sweetli's mum) took out the remaining RM 1400 first. i felt so uneasy to accept the fact that i have done such cruel things to my parents. i feel so sorry and bad to them and yet, they did not scold me at all. in fact, when i first saw my dad in the hospital after i came out from lockup, he hugged me tightly and said it's alright, as long as ur safe now. after 23 years of living, that was the first time that i can feel the love expressed by my dad. the feeling is so strong and the love is so true. ever since this incident, i decided to stay away from home. mainly, is cuz that i don't know how to face them. when i see them, i can feel that i'm living in guilt. i have no choice but leave.
along the road, fortunately, i got to know shain from greece, shoaib from pakistan, phong, jackie from vietnam, stevey, fernhandus from indonesia, ozzy, abbas from bangladesh, kim, jean from korea, borris from france, basically people from around the world gathered in a condominium called ridzuan located in sunway. all these rich people are all my customers for estacy, kaytamine, erimin 5 and meth. i brought the whole ridzuan into dramas and conflicts because everyone of them started to smoke meth. fernhandus offered to stay at his house, since i don't plan to go back home for the time being. of course i did intro the whole ridzuan to justin and simon.
started off by being simon's so called partner and got conn at least RM 8000. during early of 2009, justin came back into the picture and became simon's biggest rival. since that bastard simon conned me and justin offered me to help him out. i went to justin's side. just about a month being with justin in ridzuan, simon brought the cops up to fernhandus's house. that time i started to think, how could such person can do this to his friends. your target is only justin, but there are still so many innocent people. why is he so evil? luckily, all of us were set free due to the reason of lacking of evidence except for a guy named hong kai (the sohai who total lost my car).
after a few months, everyone in ridzuan started to change included shain and shoaib. as in their character and attitude wise. lies and conflicts were all over the whole ridzuan. the main reason is because of METH. one night, i was shocked by justin. he rushed in the house when kah poh, gary, sweetli and i were chit-chatting. he was very nervous and panic. asking us to go genting. i was kinda lazy at that moment so i said i didn't wanna go. same goes to kah poh and gary. then justin said, if u guys dun wanna leave, it's ur choice and he left with sweetli and shamir (justin's runner). about half an hour after that, i received a call from ah liang asking us to leave ridzuan and he said that he's downstairs. he asked use to follow him. the main thing is just leave ridzuan. i was still wondering, what's the problem there until ah liang also will become so panic. i fell asleep in ah liang's house and then in the morning, i went to gary's house. from there, i received a call from shain saying that their house got broken in. lost 2 laptops and a ps3 and even shoaib's passport. after further investigation, only we know that the house wasn't got broken in but the house had been rushed by the cops. even phong (vietnamese) was taken along with them and went to prison for about 2 weeks. my first piece of puzzle was just simon. after this incident, the whole ridzuan was like collapse. shoaib went back to pakistan, shain MIA, fern and stevey went back to indonesia. ridzuan ended just like this....
finally, i gained ah liang's trust (April, 2009) so i started to deal myself without justin and simon. but i don't have a place to stay anymore. ridzuan is no longer my home. i dont even have a car. then gary offered me to stay at his place, provided a gen2 for me to deliver stuffs. all i need to is just to spend him some meth. at last, i have a chance to talk to ah liang personally without the disturbance of justin yap (the twister). i asked him whether how he knows that ridzuan is gonna be rush by cops. he just told me. "justin say wan". here come my second piece of puzzle. which mean justin already know that ridzuan is gonna be rush. that's why he asked us to go genting.
thanks to my self-praised lucky star, elvina, in such short period of time, i managed to earn alot. she was there for me the whole time supporting me. deep down inside, i know what she loves, not me. even if i earn alot, but unfortunately, i don't know how to save and i wasted all my profit and cost in the "ma kei cheong" bit by bit i gamble. approximately RM 500 i lost per day, total lost around RM 27,000 in about 3 months. i started to kantoi with ah liang cuz i din't have enough to pass for his stuffs due to gambling. plus helping simon to clear his loanshark money total RM 2300 and RM 2500 when he got stopped by police in cheras. one day, i lost about RM 2000 and that wasn't my money, that was ah liang's cash that i supposed to pass to him. i borrowed RM 1000 from a loanshark and gamble again. again i lost!! i thought i was hopeless. i don't know what should i do so that i can settle the problems. always, when ur falling, there are always 2 pairs of hands there trying to pull you up. my mummy!! i lied to her that i needed to buy a laptop so she just passed me RM 2000 without any questions asked. i'm like a bloody useless son, wanted to use my mum's money to gamble again. but after second thoughts, this money is not money from drugs, this RM 2000 is not easy to earn. my dad and mum work from day to night to get it. out of sudden, it sparks my mind. i'm already a big disappointment for them, yet my mummy still pass me cash without any questions asked. so i used my mummy's RM 2000 to pay ah liang.
without being cautious, simon had a chance to get close to ah liang and started backstabbing me. saying that i have something on with kah poh making me getting a 12-stiched slashed from ah liang with a parang. during the blood from my elbow is dripping, this is my chance to get the third piece of my puzzle so i asked simon who else were the once who planned that rush in ridzuan. i can tell that from his guilty face looking at the blood on my hand dripping and told me that nap took the ps3, maniac and winston were also involved. after that, even elvina left cuz she thought that i really have something on with kah poh. how ridiculous. after that, i stop dealing for a while due to the inconveniences of my hand movement. all the while i was staying with simon's family during the period of time. aunty marie (simon's mum), clare, (simon's older sis) and leanne (simon's lil sis) are all very nice. don't know why he's so fucking evil.
not long after that, (June, 2009) so coincidently i meet justin. he always asked me to works with him although he knows that we both have "sam peng" towards each other. on the other hand, since i'm down to Zero now, just agree larhhh.. as usual, the normal keamshin. never think before deciding. time passes. justin gathered ah poh to work for him as well. basically, that period of time was kinda happy. :) but, happiness will just only stay for a moment. (July 23rd, 2009) Digital Mall got rush by IPK Shah Alam. went into lockup again on the fucking same date different year. so lucky justin wasn't around. he didn't get caught. really so lucky?? i'm not sure at that time. then when he came to visit us in the lockup. he said "yat yan chou si yat yan tong" i will bail 5 of you all out!!.. at that moment i really thought that he would come to save us. but at the end during our bailing date. he MIA!!! who else who will come and give the amount of RM 5200 to bail? my daddy!!! lorrrhh.. swt" speechless edi...
later, this mr. twister is capable of twisting back the whole story saying that he being MIA was just a misunderstanding. it is because he went all out past few days to find money to bail us out. that's why he fell asleep during the most important day. and it's not his fault and i didn't even see any cash. maybe a few hundreds. enough to bail my finger out la.. common, talk to my hand!!! this isn't the climax yet. after seng leong and i came out, ah poh and angah went to sungai buloh. 2 days later, angah came out. his dad was at out station. unfortunately for ah poh, his dad didn't have enough cash to bail him out. so his dad has to search around for money. this "tai chek kong" said this incident was happened in my house. so "yat yan chou si yat yan tong" i will "kao tim" the RM 5200. so he came to me and we discussed together. he sold his lcd tv for RM 800. so i trade my acer 4920 for 2 tables of k. he dares to roll back RM 1200 only with the 2 tables. omfg!! that was the cost!! simon quietly took his cheryl (simon's girlfriend) ATM card and he took out RM 1000 and i borrowed RM 1000 from my mummy. yes, again.. sighs.. total up we have RM 3200. then he will be the one who takes all the credit. oh my god... people's father have eyes wan lar. what more ah poh's dad was from the black market before. never come out with anything also nvm. go borrow from here and there. from ivan here RM 1400. from cheryl (his so called god mum) RM 1000. and not to forget the sold off sony bravia lcd tv. aside from that, he tell me that he is very stressful cuz he needs to find RM 5200 urgently. so he needs to go find a hooker :D !! find a hooker to release stressed!!! my eyes was like @_@!!
oh well, nvm then. it was the past. so let's just forget it.. now i have no where to stay again.. sighhs. so my only option is to Gary's!! then i met someone new. we can click through easily and basically, both of our thinkings are about the same. we're like mutual!! for example, when he looks at my eyes, he will know what i want. it is so hard to find someone who understands you right? he's choy!! my mutual understander.. hehe.. during that period of time. i feel that there's another andrew kee keam shin there with me. he can practically read my mind by my movements. soon he became my supplier, he was awesome, on time, good pricing and kind hearted. sadly, the choy that i firstly knew changed in about 2 weeks. totally contrast as before. timing sucks, price raised and his heart started to freeze. he even gamed me by giving me a table of salt instead of k. i was so disappointed at him. i really trusted him with all my heart. out of sudden, he just disappear. until now, i haven't even got a chance to see him yet.
one day (nov 2009), one of my vietnamese friend named jackie called me. during the conversation, he was crying. he told me that phong, the vietnamese guy who went into sg. buloh for 2 weeks during the rush at ridzuan, attempted to commit suicide by slashing his hand. he was then admitted to the hospital for an operation. the operation cost more than RM 20,000 due to the serious injuries on his wrist. thank god, he was safe. but then the tragedy happens once again after 2 weeks. phong's will of dying is really strong. once he decided, it's decided. no turning back. so he jumped off from ridzuan 15th floor and this time he succeeded successfully. he was born in 1979 so if i'm not mistaken, he is 31 years old now. phong used to be a big-timer in vietnam, so then he was caught in the vietnamese prison for a few years. that is the reason why he is still studying his degree at the age of 30. after being in the prison for a few years, he realizes all his mistakes that he had done before. as a conclusion, he decided to have a brand new good boy life. :) as i said, once he decided, it's decided! that's phong! then he came all the way from vietnam to malaysia to study in taylor's. chef! completed his diploma in 2 years plus and finally his last semester to his degree cert. while he was studying for his exams, his house got rushed by the cops. and he ended up in sg. buloh for 2 weeks. being in the prison is such a simple thing for him. but what affect him the most is..... taylor's expelled him from the university. his few years effort in malaysia is gone!! during his funeral, i tried to stay strong without wanting a single drop of tear to leak. but i really can't. once i think back the past. the first time we met, words that he told me, his advises and all. i just can't stop my tears from dripping out from my eyes.
ever since i broke up with sweetli, i never dare to be in a serious relationship. i'm afraid that i will get hurt one more time. after being together for about 3 years plus with her, i still can't understand her even though we are together 24/7. i don't know what she wants neither what she needs. maybe the reason why we broke up. even i tried to mix around with more girls. but yet, i just couldn't start up a serious relationship. flings here, flings there. non stop using drugs to approach girls. but this is what they asked for. but not by myself arrrr... justin was the leader. lolz. but when i have the feeling that you're his next target, i quickly give u signals, said some weird advise such as don't do shits cuz of shits. hmmm, i also dunno why i think i should protect u. ur not much special from others also. i mean like yeah, ur cute and pretty larh but still ur a normal girl right?? hehehe.. this is what i call Faith.. :) there are no explainations.
until now i'm still wondering, where is my own house actually? i'm the stupid fucker who doesn't wanna go home. i'm the one who chose to stray around. now, i can't blame anyone except for myself. my house keys are 24th hours with me, i can go back my real home anytime. but until now, i still don't know how to face my family..
